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i havent been on here in awhile but i feel like i need to be

im not normally the type to complain about anything. but lately so much shit has been getting to me and i don't know how to handle it. this is the best way i know how.

i hate how insecure i am. i don't even know why i am. i have no reason to be.
i hate how intimidated i get by people. i know they are the same as me. not better or worse.
i hate how you cheated on me after saying you were in love with me. i believed you. i was wrong and it hurts more than you'll ever know. but i hope you do know that you will miss me. but that's too bad.
i hate how i miss you and when we don't talk i need you more than ever. you are the only one to make me happy. and you never cheated on me. i'm still so in love with you, muffin.
i hate how you always think you are right, even when i KNOW your not.
i hate how you think you know everything and whats best for me. you hardly know me at all.
i hate that i can't tell you how i feel because i'm scared of how i think you really feel.
i hate a lot of things and that's just the ones i can think of right now.

sorty of my life.

Never expected it to arrive so soon
But as the night drifted on
It came time to say goodbye
Turning your back and walking away
This cold winter morning is all that remains
Why couldn't you tell me to my face
Instead of hiding until I lost faith
A heart gets broken as a life gets set free
And all I asked was love me
Years passed, seasons changed and I waited

Soon after was the pain
That would never reach you
You've gotten over me
But it seems I'll never get over you
On me I place this blame
Regrets
Praying heaven will open wide
And hold you tight
As for me, I'll be alright
This impact you would have
The songs I'd write
Dreams or you changing your mind
Anything to pass the time
But for now
I hope you can hear me as I cry
I love you and goodbye

ooooh sheeeeet!

Jesssssus, I haven't been on here in ages. my blog is all dusty now. Anyways, things have been going quite well for me lately. I moved out of my other aunts house, She really was a crazy bitch, no lie. So I live with another aunt of mine now. I think the reason why me and her get along so much better is because she is in a certain way, just like my mom. She gives me freedom, she's easy to talk to, and we have fun. She's not some uptight bitch. I had the greatest night of my life not too long ago. I went and seen A Day To Remember in Charlotte, and it was AMAZZZZZING! I lost my shoes in the pit and got a picture with Jeremey, hehe. I kind of miss my shoes though, but it was so worth it. and well, The Devil Wears Prada was pretty awesome live as well. Oh, and since the last time I really liked someone didn't work out, I moved on and found some one else. She's so amazing, she's nothing less than perfect. and just the sound of her voice makes me forget about everything around me. It's an awesome feeling. So soon I am going to visit my mom in Texass and since I'm going during the week of my 18th birthday in July, she's getting me a tattoo! I can't make up my mind between Anberlin lyrics on my wrists or go with the oh so common stars on my hips. Maybe my mom will let me get both of them, hehehe. I'm so excited to see her. I've missed her so much. It's been seven months since I last seen her. Thats most definitely way too long to not see your mom. But, I'm doing better than what I thought without her here. Although, I'd give anything to see her. I guess since I finally remembered my password, I'm going to use this more often.

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amazing if you ask me.

You always amazed me, but thats the past.
I kept silent and it rained for days,
My inside were drenched,
But I guess that's the part of growing up.
I never wanted to learn.
And I grew into the person that you never knew,
But I wouldn't be this way if it wasn't for you, 100 thank you's.
If this is love, fairy tales never came true.
Judies are black in full bloom, And I died in the womb.
Take it back, all that's gone.
It's all still there like you left it.
December stayed the same, nothing ever changed but you.
Every little dream covered in dents, love can't fly tonight.
Couples will rest, I'll be sleepless.
So cry yourself to sleep, this is about broken hearts,
This is about me.
Bending again for nothing.
I'd run to you but pain awaits.
I'm coming home but I'll be late.
No deeper than imagination can be,
Sight with nothing to see.
What's faith if I can't believe?
It's everything, a cure, but I make it a disease.
God take me because I hate me.

just a thought.

Can't hear what they're saying to me;
They're right in front of me, and you're so distracting.
I'm looking beyond their faces looking at me;
You're just arriving, and my heartbeats reacting.
Best feeling ever when you first spoke a word to me,
But these past few days have been like recovering from sugery.

How did this come and go so fast?
All I have is memories to keep.
I just had the best day of my life,
And I cried myself to sleep.

We walked around for just a little while;
You told me a few times that you liked what I wear.
Everything you said to me, it made me smile;
And just for the record, I love your long hair.
We ran out of time, now you're out of sight.
I'm so sorry that I held you up at the end of the night.
The clock was winding down the second that we met,
But now my hand begins to weaken, and this paper's getting wet.

<33

I wouldn't make it through the day
without this....

bahahaha theres a rock in my shoe.