i havent been on here in awhile but i feel like i need to be

im not normally the type to complain about anything. but lately so much shit has been getting to me and i don't know how to handle it. this is the best way i know how.

i hate how insecure i am. i don't even know why i am. i have no reason to be.
i hate how intimidated i get by people. i know they are the same as me. not better or worse.
i hate how you cheated on me after saying you were in love with me. i believed you. i was wrong and it hurts more than you'll ever know. but i hope you do know that you will miss me. but that's too bad.
i hate how i miss you and when we don't talk i need you more than ever. you are the only one to make me happy. and you never cheated on me. i'm still so in love with you, muffin.
i hate how you always think you are right, even when i KNOW your not.
i hate how you think you know everything and whats best for me. you hardly know me at all.
i hate that i can't tell you how i feel because i'm scared of how i think you really feel.
i hate a lot of things and that's just the ones i can think of right now.